Hi, my friends! I have missed everyone! It has taken me almost 10 years to be “me” again, but oh my gosh, I feel settled inside. It’s something I cannot describe, but just know that I have had to process a lot of hurt and pain and “history” to be here!
As with many things in my life that were messed up, inappropriate, wrong, or just plain destroyed, losing my garden back at the old house really hurt me. A garden? Just a garden? Could that be so bad? Well, now, you all know better than that. My heart and my spirit were there, and many a time that garden was my refuge, a place where I quietly prayed, or cried, or planned. I was constantly trying to make things better. Not everyone wanted to be on the cart — mostly one person, but you try pushing the cart. Or pulling it. It is emotionally, physically and spiritually draining!
The garden here at Jason’s — my dear Jason — is a gorgeous pallete of pine trees, hardwoods, deer, azaleas, and some basic other shrubs, weeds, pests, beautiful birds, and blah blah blah. Jason affectionately calls me “Lynnwood.” Ahhh, I love that name. It makes me so happy to be working in one part of the house and to hear, “Hey, Lynnwood!” from the other end of the house. My best friend, teacher, housemate, soulmate, finance, confidant, a friend to my children.
I was walking through our yard today and trying to decide how to incorporate some of the many things I’d like to do. Where to start! Oh, yes, I was speaking about “Lynnwood,” That’s what Jason calls the backyard as well, because he says it is mine to do whatever I want with. My heart has been so broken over so much loss, so much abuse, it has taken me years to open my heart to creating something else. Doesn’t a lot of stuff just end up getting thrown out or disrespected or bulldozed? It feels that way.
I wanted to share pictures of the garden right now. There is so much to do!! These are just spots here and there.
My aim is to have a woodland garden. I have found the the deer have left the butterfly bush completely free of their grazing! Same with lavender. I am trying to figure out what else the deer really do not like! In a recent YouTube vlog, I show where I accidentally walked right up on a little fawn! She stayed so very still. She was obeying her mother to be quiet and hide. How sweet.
If you have any thoughts on what to grow in this type of yard: pine trees, deer (lots of them), southeast US heat and humidity, please do chime right in!
I will be back soon. Feel free to keep up with me on multiple social networking platforms under the name “abitofbirdsong” as I grow my small business.
Enjoy this day!