Going through more pictures. Oh my goodness, the reality check of looking at a photo that captured a moment in time! A moment to never be had again. I loved my old house. I have nearly a quarter century of memories from that sweet little parcel of land. It will always have part of my spirit there. Anyway, in going through some photos today, I thought I’d share some pictures that touched my heart.
I no longer cry over the old house and over what might have been. It’s just pointless. There is a job for me to do now, to be a good role model for my children, to live with thankfulness and joy. To protect myself, for myself and my children and grandchildren. I have so much happiness now, and while it is not a selfish happiness in the “me, me, me” sense, it is a happiness that has come from me taking care of myself and listening to my heart. I have areas of creativity in my life now that are nurtured. I feel very fulfilled. Some of those creative processes, like painting, wanting to play music, working with clay: they started as a way to stay sane back in the darkest, last years in that house. I realized that I needed art and music. Those areas continue to grow, and I have realized that it is not wrong to protect myself from abusive and controlling people.
Every day is a gift from God. We are not promised anything beyond the moment. What we do in each moment has a huge effect on our future and on others who look to us. I am very thankful for a forgiving God who moved me from a very dark place, and for a forgiving God who saw me at my weakest and most vulnerable and still loves me.
Recently I made an art book about cats. It was so amazing! It sold pretty quickly from the shop. I am in the process now of making another for myself. I plan to keep it out where we can enjoy it and where our visitors can enjoy it.
So that is where I’m at today. I think the healing process will last the rest of my life, but I am okay with that. Some of the darkest storms have led to the most beautiful rainbows and brightest skies!
Enjoy this day!