Ahhhh, remember the days when I used to take you on garden walks? Well, I got a quick photo the other day of the old garden. Brace yourselves.
I mourn for several reasons. It is very real that my garden is no longer mine, but I am not sure I can ever stop saying “my garden.” I am also happy for several reasons. It is delightful that someone purchased this home and is finally going to save it from collapse. Believe me, it was on its way at the rate it was being neglected, and please understand that I was a mirror of the home — the state I was in. I was being cared for about as well as the home was. Oh, I cleaned and kept the house full of love, but there were things and people needing attention and it just was not happening. I don’t want to belabor this sorrowful fact, but it does seem to need clarification when I talk about the state of the house. A marriage is not made of one person. Anger does not fix problems. I have heard from people who are involved with the house now that part of the home was being held up by a “stick.” I used to worry about things I was seeing in our home, but when I brought it up I was met with anger. It was “NOT A PROBLEM!!” What could I do? I was being held up by a tiny stick as well. It is a wonder I did not cave before I finally got out of the dark place I was living in, literally and emotionally. I am only now realizing just how sick and mentally exhausted I was upon leaving.
That said, I am now the happiest I have ever been. I love studying something new, playing music (did another open mic the other night!), house hunting, my dear Jason and the garden we are planning together, and the list goes on. In fact, Jason and I went to Chuy’s last night to enjoy a meal and to talk.
Have you been to Chuy’s? Oh my goodness gracious! I love the way it is decorated. It is a Mexican restaurant chain that was started in Austin, Texas. Look at the photos and you will see what I mean…
In other news, I am heading into the weekend having spent some free time shopping for the shop this week. Tomorrow is the day I open Sidetracked! My happy place! I am working hard to finish all school work for the week. Monday will start a new chapter in our textbook. Sigh. I am a bit behind this week, I admit. Anyway, I had a lot of fun out shopping for the shop. I also wire-wrapped a few more stones. I saw an inspiring sign while out shopping. I spent some of my study time at Foster’s Market in Durham, another yummy place to just relax and take in some quiet time. So life this week has been as crazy as this paragraph just sounded! A bit of shopping, a bit of studying, a bit of shopping, studying, working…
I better close here. Much more to do before the week ends!
Enjoy this day.